It’s September and Spring is here in Canberra. I am so glad that the Winter is coming to an end. But I am feeling so overwhelmed by September. Over the course of this month two of my children have their birthdays, I have the Handmade Market, my daughter is competing at the Australian Irish Dancing Championships in Sydney and I need to get my family (and business) ready to leave on an overseas holiday.
We have never taken the kids overseas before and it has been a long time since either my husband or I have travelled. I am so looking forward to the holiday and very excited. But the month until we leave seems impossible to accomplish at the moment.
If you’ve been following my blog, you’ll know that I established my business to pursue a better balance in my life and to be able to give my children the time and care they need. Yesterday afternoon – when I was yelling at them – I realised that I haven’t really managed the balance yet! I am still overstressed at times. At the moment I am overstressed by the deadline of the Handmade Market (still lots of sewing to do) and the idea of everything I feel I should do to prepare Blue Radish for my time off.
However, after I stopped yelling, I realised that the stress I am experiencing is mostly of my own creation. It is borne out of my own perfectionism. It is borne out of the unrealistic expectations I have of what I can actually do in the time that I have. It is borne out of the pressure I am putting on myself to keep up with the arbitrary goals I set for myself.
What am I doing to myself??! I’m my own boss, for crying out loud! No one but me is putting any pressure on me. I love what I am doing and I’m so excited about building my business but there are no imperatives. There are no cut off dates for success. There are no imposed timelines to keep up with.
So! I’m letting go – of some of it at least!
The first thing I need to let go over the next couple of months is weekly blogging. I love writing the blog but I’m still learning and it takes a lot of time. No one is holding a gun to my head forcing me to post weekly (or at all) so I’m going to drop it back a notch or two. Forgive me if you don’t hear from me for a bit. I’ll try to check in but until November, you won’t be seeing a post from me every week. If you want to know when I am up and running again regularly, join my email list, if you haven’t already, and I will make sure I let you know.
Thank you dear readers for your understanding. You are why I write the blog and also why I put so much effort into it. I will be back with you I promise. Just give me a moment or two to catch my breath.
